".. insert smart sounding phrase here.."

Did something yesterday I hadn’t really done in years.. I packed .. I mean I REALLY PACKED.. 10 E Macs.. 5 G5’s .. plus a few IPOD’s into two “skids” . The last time I did something like this was about 2 years ago. Since then we’ve outsourced the packing thing , except for yesterday when there was a big fuck-up, and the stuff needed to be packed and shipped on an immediate flight. The packers couldn’t come in on time, so guess who had to do it. Yup. I think I pulled a back muscle too.. Aiiyee CARAMBA!

Was working on this baby last night..


When I realised my OTHER “baby” is quite was quiet (thank you herda, I know I typoed). I turned around to find him FAST ASLEEP, all pooped out from the general ruckus he has been causing the whole night. Now, I’ve had Ary for about 6 months now FOUR month(thank you anonymous comment) , and I’ve never posted even ONE picture of him. WHY? Well this precocious little bundle of energy has never been still long enough in one spot for me to grab a shot on my camera. This time round, he’s knocked out and my camera’s next to me.

and for some reason he LOVES that shoelace.. Got so many toys still yet will ALWAYS play with that shoelace..

[edit 1630] I lost my temper again today. I don’t know why but I seem to be losing it a lot lately. I’m afraid.. Very afraid that I would hurt someone in the fit of rage. I pride myself to be a very patient person but where is all that now? Why am I so easily unravelled lately?

Casualties. Yes there were casualties today. Thank god they were all inanimate objects. My desk drawers,and the holders detatched themselves from the housing in my desk when I slammed my hands onto it. My office door. yes the door. I put my fist through it. Why am I turning into such a violent person? Or has it been in me all this while laying dormant? I pray.. I pray God to give me strength.. Give me strength of faith, of heart.. to get through this. At this point, my enemy, my foe,the biggest adversary I have ever seen .. is myself. The fiend that is within somehow fighting to break out. The Mephisto that is me, struggling for control of my conscious self. I pray, God, for ascendancy to my soul, my sanity. Please dear God Almighty and Most Merciful. I pray to thee for salvation. [/edit]

".. I eat Meat.."

PAPA’S FOUND A BRAND NEW TOY!!…
and it’s a Predator X10… WISH LIST!!!!
*sigh*

Al Chong says:
wats tt?

Shidy says:
its a 4wd buggy

Al Chong says:
oic

Al Chong says:
u getting it ah?

Shidy says:
fuck ah its like almost 800 bucks plus shipping

Shidy says:
but if people want to give me for birthday present.. I wouldn’t mind LOL..

Met Al last night after I dropped off some electronics at S.W’s workshop. It was really getting a wee bit absurd. I was bloody determined to watch THAT movie after failing miserably twice. This time I got one step further. We were actually already standing in line at the box office for tickets.. For some reason I bailed. I don’t know why but I think I got the vibe that Al wasn’t up to it or sum’n. yeah so we grabbed a quickie bite at BK *is it just me or does BK suck nowadays?* and headed up to the pool hall. We played and we talked.

I really didn’t want to go home. I mean I love Ary and everything, but it’s just too depressing. I just realised how mundane and empty my life is. I told Al that even thought we’re like worlds apart I kinda envy him. Sure maybe life’s been handing him a lot of lemons lately, and he didn’t exactly grow up comfy. But yeah I told him straight. I envy him. He ask me why. *Yeah Shidy tell us why*

” At the end of the day, at least you have someone there waiting for you.
Even though she might be a wee bit cranky most of the time..”

“yeah like
80% of the time..” (he interjects)

“but still .. it could even be 99% of
the time .. but that other 20% or 1% for that matter is what it’s all about
isn’t it..?”

he laughs.. ” you got funny logic lah you know that”

I’m not going to deny that I am lonely. Because I am. I come home from work everyday to my kitty. I watch TV. On tuesdays MAYBE I’d attend a Drift Meet. Over the weekends I stay at home and clean my room. That’s all. Noone at home talks to me , they mind their own business. Most times when I try to engage in some form of communication with them I get singular short replies, and they move along with whatever they need to do. It’s the same thing day in day out.. week in week out.

Excerpt of Shidy’s routine (house is empty as always):
“ARYYYY!!!!!…where are you boy? “

“miew *it’’s about time you came home*” (jumps out from under my desk)

“Ary.. c’mere ” (picks up Ary/cradle like baby/rubs tummy)

“miew *yeah yeah whatever i’m hungry feed me*” purrrr

Feed the
kitten.. take shower .. watch TV …
Fall asleep with kitten curled up on my
chest. Fast forward to morning..

Ary bouncing on chest .. I open my
eyes..

” Miew *feed me* “

[edit 1400hrs]
It has been brought to my attention from someone’s Multiply site.

man this picture dates way back to the late 90’s .. maybe 98 – 99.. I haven’t changed much now have I?